My Journey:
Over the past decade, I've embarked on a profound personal healing journey, navigating through the shadows of depression, anxiety, and complex post-traumatic stress disorder—challenges that have lingered since my childhood. These inner battles led me down a difficult path marked by addiction, self-harm, disordered eating, unhealthy relationships, and a profound disconnection from my true self.
By the time I reached my mid-twenties, I knew that I needed to make radical changes in my life so that I could heal from the things that were keeping me in a state of suffering.
I knew what had occurred in my childhood and adolescent years had impacted me in a variety of ways - I didn’t need a therapist to tell me that. What I needed, was someone to help me start to heal, let go and forgive. I was lucky enough to land with an incredible hypnotherapist who was able to guide me in the realms of my unconscious. I began seeing a Naturopathic doctor to address the underlying health conditions that were having a profound impact on my well being. I began a steady yoga practice. I began studying spiritual texts. And in my deep desire to help others heal, I began training in energy and bodywork which ultimately lead me to becoming a massage therapist.
While the work I was doing was making me feel better in a multitude of ways, I still would find myself in cycles of depression, destructive behaviors, and unhealthy relationships.
In the summer of 2020 after a huge life transition and in the midst of the pandemic I had officially hit rock bottom. I was stuck in a place of suicidal ideation with little hope I would find a way out. After many years of working with many different modalities, I felt defeated. With all other options exhausted, I found my way to Psilocybin after reading about the positive effects it could have on the issues I could not seem to break free from. I embarked on a week long retreat in Mexico that included 3 Psilocybin journeys and a new phase of my healing began.
A few months after sitting with the beautiful fungi teachers, Ayahuasca found me in an unexpected way. Medicine work is like this - it seems to find us or call to us when we are ready to dive deep into the unseen parts of ourselves. What was meant to be a consultation call for psychedelic integration coaching turned into an intake call for me to come sit with the medicine. Mama Ayahuasca not only called me in, she kept me in this container for 8 months to live and work in the space she was being served. During this time, I had the beautiful opportunity to sit with the her on a regular basis. It wasn’t easy. It was terrifying and painful most of the time. And then the darkness would give way to the light. Layer by layer, she opened the doors to the depths of my soul so that I could not only heal myself, but heal my lineage and ancestors (something she has continued to do). She has led me to working with her in the Amazon jungle of Peru and in many other places across the globe. My path with her is a lifelong journey that I feel honored and humbled to walk.
Working with Psilocybin, Ayahuasca, Kambo, Hauchuma has been nothing short of transformative. The teachings I have garnered from these sacred plants have helped me to release trauma that has been stored in my body, remind me of my inherent worthiness and strength, connect to the truth of who I am and cultivate a deep love, acceptance, and appreciation for myself and my journey. It is an ongoing process as life continues to happen, and I continue to be human.
Through my own personal healing journey and extensive work with entheogenic medicines, I have come to know for certain that we all have the power within ourselves to heal and transform. It takes time, practice, and a cultivation of practices that lead us home to our truest selves.
I will always be devoted student of master plant, amphibian, and fungi teachers. They continue to be a light in the dark, not only for me, but for the many individuals I have the honor to bear witness to.
Although these medicines have the power to aid in changing our current reality, it is ultimately up to us to take the lessons, guidance, and wisdom and integrate them into our lives to see lasting shifts.
Like everything in life, its a practice - and I am practicing right along with you.
In Devotion to Healing,
Anastacia
